Great conversation...

So last night my ex boyfriend & I started texting, small talk at first and then about dreams I had three nights ago.  The conversation was so easy, nice and happy.  There was really no mention of us, but that was okay.  We talked about how my dreams seemed to signify emotional cleansing.  He said he's happy that I am taking the time to rediscover myself, and that it seems I'm benefitting from it.  I tell him it's not easy having to be with myself and my thoughts.  We ended our conversation because I was going to bathe my daughter, but she got to talk to him too.  I'm realizing how much Sammy became a huge part of our lives, and I didn't take the time to notice because things weren't the way I wanted them to be.  But now I know that I didn't really know what I wanted.  I'm glad we are working towards being friends because he became a best friend to me.  I don't know what our future holds, but I know that I can't think that far ahead.  I am learning to live in the present moment, and not live in the past or future.  I only have today to make the best of, and that's what I'm going to do.  Oh, and before I sign off, I went to church again yesterday! It felt good to be there with my daughter because I might still get sad over it being the 2 of us, but we are still a family.  :)