So I kept myself busy yesterday, and I feel stronger today. I'm finding my faith a little more each day too. He called yesterday, and I had to remain indifferent. If he really wants things to be this way, I can't fight him on it. It helped that I no longer have access to his accounts because I no longer know what he's doing or how he's spending money or on whom. Not having that control has been somewhat liberating, as weird as that sounds. I bought some books yesteray, one is an actual novel, the other is about inspiration. Writing and reading were great passions of mine a long time ago, so I've decided that I need to return to what I used to love to do in my spare time. With a toddler it is not easy - juggling gym, time with her and finding time at the end of the day, but I can commit to it more when she is with her dad on the weekends. What's really weird too is that not having facebook to turn to has also been a breathe of fresh air! Who would have thought!? I'm a facebook addict! ;)
I'm hoping today will be another great day, and that I'll continue to feel but not let myself get down. I'm looking forward to the holidays, and in going home to see my family for Thanksgiving. Court hearing is also around the corner, and that makes me anxious. But I'm so ready to get closure on divorce and get a verdict on if we have to remain in this area or if we can move. Either way, I've decided I have to find my happiness here or there.
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